; my presence, my pleasure, my pain_`

2008-05-09T22:58:00.003+08:00

suddenly got the mood to blog again. lols`
life's kinda boring though ):
but HEY! boy's coming back in 10days :DD
results for Sa1 wasnt vry gd either, cus i nvr study ._.
but was okay i think.
alrights, all for today..geeez.

2007-08-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

nv did went to sch today.
LAZY :\ waited for the results for campus ytd night.
damn it, marcus went out ): siann`
so now i pray that shawn gonna beat benjamin -.-

2007-08-12T00:14:00.001+08:00

went amk with him & took lots of random pics :D
had fun with ice-cream, watched rush hour3,
had laughters and everything (:
i love this prince of mine (:
negatively US :D
funny uh. OKAYs.

2007-08-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

im sick sick sick,
i feels terribly awful.
viral fever, damn it.
i want to recover,
i want to get well ):

2007-07-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

today had my MATHS & POA. terrible terrible.
maths was a total :\ disheartened sehh..
thought can score better, then in the end ):
nothing more, today shall be the LAST day of ca3 :D
like finally, HOHO!

2007-07-24T13:36:00.000+08:00

HOHO! im in school ~
so ergh` studied way tooo much for chemistry,
but overall, was alrights lah :D
my FIRST time to study for chemistry (:
so yeeps; later have physics remedial :\

2007-07-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

RACIAL HARMONY today, & many wore costumes to sch.
some look like angel, but some look rly =.=
took pics in class with a BIG, PINK TEDDY ! it's SO big and soft :DD
with a LOLLIPOP in my mouth :D
random -.=''
then went to find him at lot1,
REPLACED my ez link which cause me $30 in total;
SUKI-ed with him;
& he bought me a bag from ZINC! hoho :DD
he says its cute, & its indeed - rabbity.
so i went home, and dressed the rabbit with tie, watch, nametag & yah. LOLS!

2007-07-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

quite long nv blog lerhs =\
had dinner with him just now, hang abit at the playground, then went home.
having exams NEXT week.. & aww ):
studied chemistry, & realized my table was in a MESS. terrible -.=''

SEE, i DID study :D
took this when he had his ALMOND TEA, & i had my BLACK SESAME (: our masterpiece;

2007-07-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

): he's away`yy & will only be back on FRIDAY.
but, went out with him & hendrick ytd night to watch "die hard 4.0" at amk.
McClan just wont die. LOLS! obviously, nv die hard enough.
ate dinner, and he sent me home (:
strolled around my area, & took pics of our shadows :DD

his hand & mine (:
i'll be missing you, my precious <3

2007-07-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

PART ONE:
the day we looked forward to - our very EAGLES o4/o4 POP :D & it's indeed awesome!
can't really express how i feel.
there's mixture of - "WOW. finally de feeling," and.. "she bu de" ):
finally, FINALLY got the chance to throw all our berets high up into the air, & was AHH ! :DDDDD
took loads of pics and had lots of fun (:
moreover, the juniors, CIs & even the sirs did us tribute videos.
was really touched, and recalled the days when we're still cadets, the life we had from sec1 till now, awww`...
hardships, punishments, cheers, campfires & everything.

THROWN, soaring high :DD
o4/o4 EAGLES, tgether as one (:
HYPER :D
RANDOM (:
the guys & girls <3>

endured for FOUR long years & it's over..
i love eagles, (: thanks for the memories & all <3>

PART TWO :
went NTUC to shop for groceries, home to wash up. AND OF COURSE, to prepare food for picnic!
so, prepared sandwiches, salad, soup & drinks (:
went picnic at ....reservoir; and its rly peaceful there.
with him around, i feel loved. LOLS!
lie on the patch of grass, had our feets soaked in the water with algae & fishes inside,
to fight for seaweeds & to roll on the grass cus he TICKLED me :\
i love you dear <3

2007-07-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

tuesday is coming rly soon :\
& means, he's leaving for US le.
though he gonna be back by friday? but who knws,
maybe he gonna go during, JAN, next yr.
: teared & (: smiles,
& i gonna miss you <3

2007-06-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

went shopping with my sis today at bugis village & parco junction.
spent money on shirt, jeans & running attire. lols`
then bout 530pm, went marina square to wait for him..
played pool before had suki steamboat for dinner :D
crap & joke. had fun; saw couples taking pics, then we poser :\

he looks like POPEYE uhh :D LOLS!

then crap more, then walk alot, then went separate ways (:

2007-06-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

2007-06-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

he mentioned something which make me stumble - "maybe going US study"
awww ): but alrights lah.
of course, i'll miss him & (:
shant say much bout it..
sch reopening next week & time to study !

2007-06-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

went out with him today, & (:
maybe, i should be more ...
-.- those feelings are hard to express,
wonder if baby girl had returned to him.. LOLS!

2007-06-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

today went to look for him (: had a fun time :D
intend to catch oceans13 or silver surfer.. but mum called me to work around 5pm .
then im like ERGH. work =.=
ate suki sushi for lunch, and took some pics (:

the prawns sashimi (: heart,

followed on by the apple- i mac. by him :\ [spoiler]
took in the cab (: when i bite his hand so hard.. LOLS!

2007-06-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

felt so wrong all of a sudden, maybe..im too bored?
had nothing to do & yet, cant rly call him ):
probably, he's being too busy with his work.. and; yah (:
by right, tmr can go out with him.. but.. (: he's working.
so.. (: shall look forward to thursday..

2007-06-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

today woke up 5.30am in the morning. so proud of myself *winks*
then went down cck to have the mass run..
tired =.= but lols, took pics on the way with my students (:

the shadows of US,
TWOdevils;
then, nothing much though.. hols are indeed- BORING :\

2007-06-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

HOHO! com's working xDD
& thats all (:

2007-05-28T14:56:00.000+08:00

ERGH. computer spoil :\ & gonna send to repair..
now using didi's com. lols`
things going on fine this few days, just that..
results for SA1 aint good enough =.=
buck up and move on xDD

2007-03-25T19:28:00.000+08:00

exhausted, & (:
confused and abit ...
hard to solve :\
& if u says so,
i would,

2007-03-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

i did something foolish today,
and..came to realize my position.

_indeed, im weak`

2007-03-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

the TEN familiar faces in 3e6'07 (:
cutting the prima deli's chocolate cake :D
im so so so happy today :D
thanks to e'vryone who celebrated my birthday..
special thanks to :
-him,
-gabriel [didi],
-174rians,
-all the retainees in 3e6,
-gary, aaron, weijie, tuan heng, kenneth [e6], dawn, jackie, nick, kenneth [e5], dawei, jonathan

; maybe the last yr of celebrating with the majority of 174. but still; make it memorable (:
the card, the watch. xD
; thanks for the party, with cakes and everything :D
i love all of you <3
_shall upload the presents tmr :DD

2007-03-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

slacked at home today :D
guess, didnt missed out much fun in sch.
& yahs, things are changing.
some to positive sides, then some are ....
whatever it is,
hope everything goes on fine (:

i seriously hope for what chunfai says, for what pple think is totally wrong.
let me dream on,__

2007-03-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

went out after sports day,
overall, friends are fun to be withh (:
watched mu'vee after pooling.
it says, " it ain't over until it's over,"
sounds meaningful..

_`iloveyouu,

2007-02-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

people are just so ....
most will just neglect you or drift away from you once they found another new partner.
no matter how much you helped in the past,
are easily forgotten.
friends are some who can standby you forever, or just a period of time.
no matter how freaking close you used to be with,
it seems nothing (:
thats life, i supposed.

_" if only i could,

2007-02-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

my BIG day coming very soon :DD
i cant find that the version4 tamagotchi !
and yihui lazy to find when she's in vivo.. ):
monday blue's today :\
no mood, no nothing..

off topic : chunrong is fun,
爱我的人和我爱的人。

2007-02-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

its ELEVEN:FORTY:THREEpm!!
he'd gone japan for the past 1wk.
& gonna be back any moment :D
being sick for the past 4days =.=
finally, im living again (:

_[`all ii need, is an answer (:
太好的朋友，往往都做不了情人..

2007-02-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

spent my vday playing pool with friends (:
happy vday EVERYONE xD

i'd chose, you?

2007-02-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

i'd failed my english by freaking 2marks :\
maths was utterly disappointed.
vday is..tmr
& ):

rest in peace, my dearest uncle...

2007-02-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

left POA & chinese for tmr xD
saw YIJIN today at the playground,
hoho. he looks different..
and and and,
vlentines day coming in 1wk time ):
and, i guess i shall have it alone.

2007-01-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

exams coming next week !
valentines coming in 2wks time,
birthday coming in.. one months' time.
LOLS! i made a deal withh him.
so..pray hard for me (:

2007-01-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

losing you has taught me -
that nothing is certain.
& in one split second,
i'd lost you (:
more or less, i can feel;
you're leaving...

__' ii hope you gonna be alright (:

2007-01-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

its hurting inside,
i love you <3

my leg is hurting =.=

2007-01-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

life is boring :\
sec4s are busying having their remedials & all,
yet, i got nothing to do ):

_it has been a week, my dear`

2007-01-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

i shall let my love preserve this.
i shall not wait, but let love do the job;
i shall neither swear nor determined to wait for you..
but ya, love (:
how long this love can last,
shall be the time i gonna be there..
i love you, my dear <3>
& if you ever come back to me,
we shall start afresh..

2007-01-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

school reopened few days back;
& my class is -.-
with new faces, new teachers, new environment, new system.
it feels so strange & tiring.
im starting to hate school.
maybe till now;
i couldnt accept that_
i got to start over again, learn how to breathe and move on with a brand new life of mine.
& i sincerely hope things would turn out fine for me..

2007-01-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

oh oh oh. he's away in KL.
ii missed the night before he went ):
and; in 2days time, i'll be back in sch as a sec3 student.
and will be taking o'levels in 2years time instead of this year. -.-
lols; alright.
anyway; HAPPY 2007 e'vryone!
luck for the incoming year & work hard for o's !!! xD

2006-12-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

im sick; but went to queensway with them (:
bought 1 pair of kappa shoes - $42+ after discount xD
things there quite cheap.
but im still thinking of the keychain which cost..39bucks -.-
went j8 withh gab & dar in the evening,
ate thai express for dinner; & celebrated for gab xD
mummy came fetching me, & saw me withh him.
lols`but she said nothing.
& bought denim skirt and shirt : $61.
hars. everything there discount :DD
well; polar bear is cute..
& last of all; GABRIEL LOW; happy birthday :DD

2006-12-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

went his house to take a nap before gabriel come; & proceeded on to hai inn.
intended to go ice-skating, but we're like so sluggish.
went jurong point instead, and bought nothing -.-
fell in love withh rum & raisins ice-cream xD

im looking forward to :
-CHRISTMAS celebration withh him;
-loads of x'mas gifts :D
-school reopen so that can finish another yr of sec3 fast -.-
-my BIRTHDAY !
-& last of all; my june holiday trip to KOREA withh him xD although is withh hai inn, but still; hehh :DDD

2006-12-17T04:06:00.000+08:00

if were to pacify me; makes you feel 看不起你自己,
then; i shall find no need for you to come pacify me.
i've got so much to say..but i cant.
something is changing between us.
temper? attitude? or the fuse between us is getting shorter?
& what can i do to make it all right?

letting go aint giving up; its just accepting something aren't meant to be (:
__`dun let pride come invading...

2006-12-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

understand the reasons & all.
if you cant change, so be it..alrights.
im not flaring or breaking because the matter of freedom again.
just, to see if there's way to improve them.
give me space to breathe.
i'll be fine;
& if i do disappear, i'll be safe.
take care when you're playing judo & all.

words are left unsaid; 继续沉默

2006-12-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

ah, im sick of vomitting =.=
& vivo is so ...
luckily never lost my way :D

哭过却无法掩埋歉疚 (:

2006-12-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

damn gabriel, told me cost $80 to rebond at alan & guy.
in the end, mine cost $130 ! its like so ?!?
then drag my feet with eve to central bare footed :DD
hars. then..managed to find one salon cost only $100.
not bad larhs. (:
& tmr going KAYAKING =.= wths.
i hope; it wont spoil my hair..
luck*

2006-11-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

planned to eat breakfast @ central with veron & eve before going down orchard.
but in the end, all put aeroplanes.
all come with mother =.=
but at least, darling gave me a BIG surprise by popping behind me.
kaes. then, mrt-ed down with the girls.
fareast-ed; bought only a shirt which cost : $24.
eve bought one too. but that veron bought nothing.
before going to cityhall, we bought sweet talk outside far east.
AND i tell youu, dun buy =.= it taste damn so bloody blend.
not sweet at all, and cost more ex than the usual ones.
went suntec and all of us bought a cross necklace : $10 each.
and i bought choker @ perlini which only cost $7 :D
then a watch: $10.
well; all tired and hungry.
so, ate @ pizza hut.
i cant find suitable heels of my size =.=
only eve bought. ahhs, and i want :'(
veron bought the least.. :DD she's ma fan u see?

2006-11-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

with SHADES (:
gabriel & darling on the tree!

& that's how nice the scenery it is_

went pierce reservoir with gab & darling today (:

weather and things got on fine..

so, basically to picnic & to fish there [though is i......]

ahs, scenery there is nice.

sky so blue, grass so green, with water so calm.

excellent place to do pondering & thinking :DD

all i do is to snap pictures here & there when they're shooting turtles =.=

till the evening, and went eat dinner & to go home.

yarps, an enjoyable day (:

你仍然是我的一切，

我始终放不下；放不开。

2006-11-28T04:56:00.000+08:00

said something i never expect he will (:
im really thankful..
& i do understand.
just that, i cant breathe-
and..im numb by everything you've said.
so, it's like..
"paying for buffet?"
eat more while you can since u've paid the amount of money?
dun ever apply that to me..
dun ever (:

2006-11-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

it changes.
no longer the same as before (:

你还是我的一切，
但；我们拥有的一切已经有所改变。
我们还能走下去吗？

2006-11-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

waiting for him to dismiss -.-
guess where i am now?!
AHS! his- lols.
in the office slacking, using com.
well, i miss him (:

2006-11-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

想要，和能不能拥有，
是两回事 (:

2006-11-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

im having hear burn now =.=
ahh. ffff the feeling..
it damn so terrible.

因为我相信你是我的一切，
所以，我想拥有你一辈子。
就算，一线的关系；也好 (:

2006-11-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

im sick sick sick =\
simply vomit e'vrything i eat =.=
he too,
& ii pray he's alright (:
darn HTA course.
lasted from 8.30am to 6pm for two fcukig days just for badges.
and i dun think evryone paid attention to the lectures -.-
AND AND AND ,
we were happily munching on crackers and all even sirs and mdms around us.
hars. eagles xD
[though we were not as hyper as before?]

2006-11-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

im rotting at home =\

i know, i understand. & yet, i cant do anything ): sorry`

2006-11-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

this entry is for YESTERDAY ! supposed to meet onesevenfourians at amk station @ 11am. but e'vryone was late, and reached around 12pm. soon, mrt-ed to marina bay. intended to fly kites, and to bowl there. in e end, rained. therefore, changed of plan. we nv did fly kite, only played arcade and played 4 games of bowling. we took loads of pics there :D got one pic is total score is 174 lehh. SPECIAL rights?! :D and arcade againn after bowling.. play play play, joke joke joke, crap crap crap until 5+.

mrt-ed back to amk, took pics again :D reflection of me and eve & a picture of us ALL ! ate seoul garden for dinner, and gotta paid $22.50 per person :\ an chun came along. & we all ate so much of beef and chicken. different kind of ways of marinating. but it's nice larh (: we were like crapping around, and all so hyper.

around 8pm. veron,me & eve went off. mrt-ed to cck while eve alighted at sembawang. though is tiring, but still, one of my dearest memory withh 174 xD they're fun and crappy :D maybe that is why, one.seven.four.

2006-11-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

hehh. today was fun fun fun :D exchanged present withh him, & he gave me a bottle filled with stars, hearts, "scrolls", neoprints & rings. written with different languages. [and ii cant understand =.=] went bukit timah to hunt for korean cuisine. ahh. it's nice. :DD then played cs for 2hrs. OH. and dota is not fun -.- eeee`proceeded on to bugis. & we shopped around, and bought me necklace from 77th street. its a cross. LOLs' and think is nice & unique. went on to eat our dinner, tian tian steamboat. hehhhs. SURPRISE followed on. whichh is DHL hot air balloon. (: ii love him LOADS. high up the sky withh him, then hoho. ii gonna rmb for life.

thanks darlingg for all the surprise & all. your effort to prepare and all. we shall celebrate the next #1000 days t'gether :D

HAPPY #1000 days, my dear !!
to love youu beyond eight.two.zero four <3

2006-11-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

a brand new start of my screwed up life.
as what ii expected, my appeal went unsuccessful (:
alrights, guess. i've hit the rough patch of life.
quarrelled with them again yesterday.
& ii shall accept the fact that,
they dun understand,
and i have to start off by obeying to them.
i shall try to control my temper, and not attitude them.
and ii guess, it gonna be tough for me.
im afraid of falling & to get bruises all over me.
so, i shall take my time to learn how to walk.
LOLs ' never mind.
BUT; life isnt that bad larhs.
at least, #1000 days is on WEDNESDAY!! :D

2006-11-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

went orchard with sis ,
& bought loads of accessories, and one green "shirt", OH.
and a pair of shades. :D
i've been shopping for the past week -.-
this is bad bad bad. LOLS`
then, went sakae sushi eat.
it's just.. waste of money.
suki is much more better in the quality of foods and all.
and...
arghh. i gonna change phone.
damn my phone,
it went black out again and again..
i gonna service tmr at wisma again,
for the THIRD time.. =.=

2006-11-03T01:34:00.000+08:00

i will never forget,
the words hit so badly.
i shall r'member.

“为什么不可以在家读书？
你去年就是在外面读书，才会留班。
都不懂你在外面有没有读书。
是我白疼你，
养到这么大，一点感恩都没有。
留班了，都不会悔改。
不受人家管教，
是我们白养你"

白养我？...i get it (:
all this years, i've learn how to scream & shout in silence.
i've learn how to cry in the dark w/o pple realizing.
words left unsaid, shall be left unspoken.
everything seems so wrong.
my screwed up life-
all i wanted is to have someone who understands me in the family.
not someone who only nags,
and claims that it's their form of caring and concerning.
cause, i dun think so one bit.
different in idealogy shall result in arguements & quarrels.
sometimes, i really wonder;
how much do i know bout them?
how much do they know bout me?
kind of mystery ii guess (:

words that are left unspoken:
1. i care,
2. i love my family.
3. i dun mean to be rude & all.
4. 我只想做个好孩子
５．我要一个温暖的家庭

2006-11-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

late midnight and im blogging. LOLs`
blogged things which happened ytd -.-
today went suntec find him..then he bought a tie.
& jinyi come rushing me to go bugis -.-
then..took mrt down bugis.
went eat that damn jap food, cost me $13.50 lehh.
not even consumable. -.=''
then..went bugis street, bought jeans derh 3/4 pants.
and..bought something for ganma. (:
&. im wondering if ii should attend the course;
which acquire skills & all.
hars. & ii doubt ii can make it. :D

___#1000days approachingg in 5days..
ii need ideas`___

2006-11-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

finally level 38 liaos :DD hehh. im slow enoughh -.- today, went suki sushi withh darling.
LOLS. ate till damn full.
cant finish, then anyhow hide.
next time eat the thai restaurant :DD no jap food for 3weeks. :D
then..hars. ii dun wanna go home. then try to coax me withh one toy.
LOLS. those kiddy play one; press one thing, then the seal will make noise, & flap the wing.
though its childishh, but somehow, it's cute.
took cab home..arhhh. at home beside maple, still maple. :D
therefore, mapled for..8h ii think. :DD & know wat?
soon, OMFG !
my mama go find mr chia today for appeal, & he claim that he nv receive my appeal letter -.-
wthh`ahh. tmr ii gonna bomb the school. (:
so, once again, hope my appeal gonna be successful (:
ii do have hopes now. hars :DDD

____darlingg; study hard (: jiayouus!

2006-10-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

im sick & tired to be nice to them, yet they come kp me. so what if i retain? must all of them give me cold shoulders and all? does it mean im asking for money when i tried to be nice to them?! does it mean i hate staying at home when i go out and study even exams are OVER?!
and, darling, u says u wish our daughter will not be like me. alrights, you still can choose your fate. it ain't too late for youu. & i think, u should know what i mean. you says isnt too late for me to amend. lols' and i dun think so. i tried to be nice over the phone when u called me to. it's beyond my limits to be nice when they come shouting for nothing. they'll never know even if ii care (: so be it. maybe, this is my way of caring for them. it doesnt need to be shown anyway. whatever they think and assume; so be it.

I try to make a sound,
but no one hears me.
I'm slipping off the edge,
I'm hanging by a thread,
I wanna start this over again.

2006-10-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

went orchard and bugis with gan-ma, & sis joined in later. wore heels for the first time & shopped till ii drop. so, ii bought :
-one black t-shirt from heeren; $49 [but its nice :D]
-one "jap style" collar shirt; $16.90 -one white t-shirt from bugis; $10 [cheap yet nice`]
-AND, 1 pair of earring from bugis street; $2
OH. and somemore other things; $58

not bad larhs. im happy today, cause ii bought quite alot of things. :D
but darling is still @ his halloween party -.-
he must be VERY tired. cause, ytd night he did something for ME till very late. ):
wonder what's that. hehhhs` iloveyouu <3>
& surprisingly; veron msged me and say "evry thursday go swimming."
_warhs. impressed`

2006-10-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

after they graduate in the yr 07, what am ii gonna do? to retain, to graduate one yr later than them is something really terrible. imagine;
without them during recess,
no more familiar faces occupying the whole rows of benches,
no more craps, laughters & screamings during recess,
no more so called " tables rules" ,
no more morning gatherings at the bball court,
no more "sports meet" evry friday.
manns. this is terrible. different prom..withnessing them going off w/o me.
imagine start of 2007, i gonna live independently w/o them. ii dun want. ii gonna be so not used to it.
ii want to graduate withh them. to share the same prom night. to share the same class next yr. ):
but this not gonna happen anymore.
(: i love youu guys.
__truly ii do. <3

2006-10-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

EVE was late! hars. im so much earlier than her (: still dare remind me not to be late -.- then mrt-ed to orchard, actually planned to eat sakae at cinneleisure. but bo lehh. then anyhow, went sakura. sounds so ... but okay larhs. ate fresh oyster withh lemon for the 1st time ! :D eve kia then dun dare try. LOLS` then..meet up with ginna. she got a nice taste of dressing. :D then ii had an extreme makeover. LOLS.but remembered only bought $70 out. then asked dar to transfer another 100bucks to me. :DD lols. thanks dar` so shopped, and tried like nobody's business; bought one kinda of..top? ii dunno -.- then belt from 77thstreet. think its nice. :DD but nv did buy any accessories. ): suchh a pity. then..jinyi said she's hungry. then went to sushui tei" @ paragon. but most of the time there, she's bio-ing that guy called..brady tan? the manager- dun think its shaui larhs. just that the hair is nice. but..she loves him -.- LOLS. kaes. go on, walked damn far down far east. intend to take bus. but..we dun see any bus stop there. LOLS. so, bo pian. dragged our feet down. manns, tiring. went level by level to search for nice heels. but..fail -.- THEN, last level, zhun zhun got one nice one. then i bought "milky white" heels, & eve bought a pair of black ones. hehhs. our first time wearing heels lehh ! :D lols. blahh. still, i dun think its enoughh. (: hint hint* next time must drag someone like jinyi out. :D but i doubt jinyi would want to go out withh me lerhs. ): cause ii too troublesome. LOLs. kept on saying my skirt is long. omg..when i think its short. :D later shorter ahh, my mama gonna kill me -.='' then..around 5plus 6, dar finishh work. then eve and jinyi went home, while ii walked to wisma to wait for him. :D then went collect my phone. watchh mr.bean, quite entertaining. LOLS. then went eat dinner. dimsum, rice-noodles,tom-yum soap & raw beef soup. LOLs. went on withh library @ orchard. im like so hyper. then mrt-ed home. yeah. got scoldings when ii got home. -.- dumb enoughh. all for today. and eve is right, i still can feel the ache -.='' ii cant upload images! im having problems with my blog. )': eve, help !

2006-10-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

my new blog. (: THANK YOU EVELYNN ! :DD well, so muchh to blog today. gonna be long-winded. hais.
tmr, gonna be speech day. the real BIG event whichh ii really looked forward to. and; im already in the GOH contigent lerh. supposingly, ii should looked forward to it. but, (: i dun. maybe its because, ii didnt fight all the way for it. maybe, ii dun deserve a place in it at all. my fellow eagles cadets fought so hard for it, and yet, was not selected on the 6thsept. as for me, i told a lie- that i went for holiday. and..mr tan was so kind to me. and let me went into the contigent. up to me if ii can kick out one of them. manns. i did it, by kickingg my best pal in class- michelle. now that we had rehearsals almost ev'ryday for speech day, & alvin,jiaying are the reserves. im guilty somehow. and, iim not going for tmr's speech day. (: many thought that im sick. no doubt im sick, i can still make it. but, becus..the place in GOH dun even belong to me in the first place, why should ii be there tmr? (: maybe, alvin could replace me. ii know the feelingg of being taken out of the squat, and being a reserve. ii dun want any of my friends to share the feeling i had before. (: esp alvin. the one who cheered me up when im down. LOLs. yeahh. alvin gn. thanks (:
secondly, ii retained. comfirm 3e6 next yr. actually, ii thought if ii study hard enoughh, ii gonna make it to 4e next yr. but, im wrong larhs. (: maybe, like someone of youu say..studied in the wrong way? maybe, ii dun really ought to be promtoed barh. slacked thruout the yr till june then start to panic. LOLS. but still, i did tried my best. (: esp for maths. LOLS`still failed -.- importantly, i dun bear to leave my onesevenfourians. ii wanna promote withh them, and to graduate withh them. i wanna share the same prom night withh them, also, withh the current 3e4. though 3e4 is make up withh gl and fcukers, still, majority of them are angels. (: thankful to know joel, shaohui,ann,ishqi,michelle,leonard,eugene and loads more peeps. glad to be withh the BIGGEST gang in whole sec3- 174.ii love them loads. well, ii dunno how to face my family & all (: im afraid.
thirdly; MUMMY, im sorry. know that i've let youu down all the while. know that i've being giving u problems and all, never did show youu my care and concern. now that i retain, u didnt blame me muchh too. this makes me more guilty. ): i didnt dared to. didnt dared to apologize even when im in the wrong. maybe, im coward. didnt dare to admit my mistakes and all. ii cant put down my egos in front of youu. and becus of that, i often disappoint youu. still, iloveyou,mummy. take care of youself when you're ill. sprain wrist lerhs, must auto yi dian. dun take those heavy stuff. all i long for, is to have a mummy, one who will spend more time withh me- so that..we can be closer?! -.-
next up - darlingg. the one who showed me love and care all this while. the one who cheered me up by appearing in front of me when im down, no matter how late his school end. (: the guy who has been the strength in me all this while. the one who makes my life worthwhile. know that im someone full of lame crap and all, u still can stand me. LOLS. (: xie xie ni. sorry if ii had piss you off recently, due to all the bad moods im in -.- dunno what the future holds for us, but still, im thankful. :D though, it has been three long years, still, wo hen ai ni. <3>
LASTLY, those who kana promtoted, jiayouuus for next yr's o's :D i love youu guys.